The Time Is Counting Down

It is almost 8 PM here and in just a few short hours, this year is over.  And try as hard as I might, I have to finally admit that I am sick. Not the way I wanted to bring in the new year just in case that old saying that what you do on New Year’s Eve is what you will be doing the next year is true. Fever, headache from H, sore throat, chills and breathing is way off…having to keep the oxygen on 24/7 right now.

I wonder if there is a return center for viruses or infections?  I would be standing there in line, dragging my oxygen with me. I could see it now…reason for return..”I tried it and I don’t like it”. Son has tried to entice me to eat but I just am not hungry, so I am going to head back under the covers and turn the lights back out and lay here and stare at J and J and see if it will put me back to sleep. Jack has been standing guard at my bed. He does that when I am sick…like he knows something is wrong.

I wanted to be up to see the year come in but just can’t do it…..so you all whoop and holler and pop the cork on the champagne and sing the song for me. ok .:)  Happy New year to all

The Year Is Coming To An End

Well, this year is almost over. It is hard to believe. I lay here and think about where we were this time last year and all we have come through and endured to make it to here and am amazed at all we have done and gone through. And the memories bring to mind the following quote:

Of course, my problem is that most of my life I have HAD to be strong and when that happens, there are times you just wish someone else would be strong for you. Not to worry, does not mean I am tired of fighting. It simply means that sometimes it would be nice to not HAVE to be strong all the time. Being strong means people are not always there for you for they figure you have it handled. And even the strong need someone there…someone to walk with them.

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So, as I sip my coffee out of my grizzly bear mug that the guys brought me when mama was here visiting, I think about the year ending and realize that what I had hoped for will not happen. I was hoping all the kidney stuff would be over before we started the new year but it won’t be. I am still waiting on them to decide when and which was is safest for me. But, because this is still hanging over my head, I have decided to not mention it anymore and so the next post that will have anything about this will be a picture of me hopefully with a thumbs up and son telling you all that I did ok.

As I think about the new year, I think about things I never want to see again on TV. I don’t want to see commercials for Trojans, feminine products, medicine, reality shows like Jerseylicious and the Kardashians and all the other trash on tv. Bring back quality shows.

I think about things I hope for in the coming year….like less doctors, a few more feel better days, special friends, and days of serenity and peace and joy.  Remember, the best gift you can give someone you love is your time. Nothing else matters.  So, take the time to breathe and enjoy life and slow down and enjoy your loved ones. Every minute you waste on rushing and material things…you have lost forever on the more important things. Take time for the important things. I have been guilty of saying “oh I will make it up later” but you can’t make up lost time. It is gone…never to return. We each only have a certain number of minutes in our lives…don’t waste them.

I love living in small town USA. There is not the rush rush rush that big town people seem to love and are used to. People are laid back and take life as it comes. I love seeing people standing in the shops and talking to friends they run into for fifteen and twenty minutes instead of rushing through the shops and out the door. I am a country girl and proud of it.

I think we can get lost in the minutia of things around us and lose sight of the important things in life. When was the last time you just sat and looked at a sunrise or sunset and seen the beauty?  When was the last time you just sat and talked without looking at your watch and thinking of all the things you think you need to get gone.  My philosophy is will the world stop turning if I don’t get it done?  Will it matter a year from now what someone said or did or didn’t do?

So, as the new year is ending, all the lights and the tree in my room with the blue and yellow and red lights are packed away til the next season. Our house no longer looks like the holidays but back to the reality of home. And life is resuming as normal with me here in my little cocoon. I actually went out of the house for the first time in over two weeks the other day, but it was for medicine. Unfortunately, it is the reason for the bad spasms the past couple of nights. Maybe one day when the medical is over, I can take a ride and see my beloved mountains.

For now, everyone asks me what I am doing for New Years. Not a thing. Just going to be thankful I made it through another year and pray the next year is a little easier and less hectic. Going to be a quiet nite here in the home at the base of the mountains….other than any fire crackers that may go off. I remember when people would say what you did on New Years Eve and who you talked to is who you will talk to and what you will do the coming year. Well, might be true but is one of those things I just ceased to worry about. I figure what will be will be.

Jack is still protecting his new robe and making me laugh. I can’t wait to tell Mama for she will have a laughing fit over that. She loves Jack and he loves her. I love what someone called Jack…Wonder Dog with his robe on. hmmm I wonder if that is him going out at nite?

And son is going to help me put a perm in today I hope. No, NO…not a curly perm..just some body. My hair is lifeless…hahaha kinda like me lately…and needs a boost.  It is a good thing he does not mind helping me cause I can’t do it by myself anymore. So, it should be quite an experience. I told him I was gonna have Jack take a picture of him.  He always asks me..”are you sure you want me to do this??”  and I have to laugh. He does a good job. So, I will put a little life in my years….starting with this lifeless hair of mine.

The day is almost half gone and I am still thinking about life, family, friends, loved ones and the coming year. Know that you are missed..by someone…even when you think you are not.

And reach out and grab life and enjoy. Don’t let anyone or anything destroy your happiness for it lies within your heart not in other things or people. Live life with an eye for the most important things in life for this is a one time shot. There are no reruns in life. And I wish you all a blessed coming year.