Mojo On Hard

Thanks guys. rough day and rough nite. I had just started easing off wed and then thursday..here we go again with RFA. He had a difficult time as he says my spine is really bad. Took him over an hour and a half to do 8 places and said he would decide next week if what this was doing to me would be worth any benefits of doing it. If it is..will be deaden again next week, and then burn the next and burn other side the next. So mojo on hard.

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OH my goodness friend… to look at that picture, to only imagine what YOU went through to even sit up for that picture to be made brings tears to my eyes on your behalf… the positive spin here? your thumb still works and looks pretty good dear one… But the pain in your eyes is staggering and reflects pain that I must tell you I have probably not known… I hurt on your behalf, I admire your fighting warrior self, but dearheart, in keeping it real, I have to tell you…
YOU LOOK LIKE YOU ARE GOING THROUGH HELL right now and from the earlier picture of all the bandaids, the description of the procedure of needles 8 into your severely damaged spine, hell may just be the appropiate description for the pain you are in I guess.

Many will not look into your eyes in this picture and see your pain… I pray you will get some relief, find hope in encouragement as others recognize you for the kind and glorious person you are even today when pain is off the chart. I pray folks are clinking on that paypal button to ease some of the great financial burden that adds to suffering now even with one dollar and greater amounts. I hope against hope that the pain lessens and you can sleep and restore as you face three more treatments like this, and mostly i want you to know, “I am here, I got you” and will walk at times you cannot along a path that seems to be wracked with pain and struggle, I am glad you are alive and still find the courage to smile and believe… May the Creator keep a close eye on your dear one… Hugs on the winds from my side of the world to your room…
But yes, you do look miserable and your eyes just break my heart today.

Comment by SHERRY E SHOWALTER | September 14, 2012 | Reply
- thank you for your words sherry..they mean so much. I will admit has not been easy at all and right now I am just hurting and exhausted. The temporary block did bring some relief so if they can burn the nerves maybe that will give me some help in the lower back pain.
  love you friend and thank you for standing by me. hugs
  
  Comment by danLrene ©2011 | September 14, 2012 | Reply
This is really something else that they did to you. I pray you feel better so they can finish this but feel for you when they do. You are a true trouper. A real surviver. Love n prayers.

Comment by Darlene | September 16, 2012 | Reply
Praying God will use this to help you with the pain. So sorry you’ve got so much to deal with. It has made you a beautiful, inspirational person though.

Comment by ansuyo | September 19, 2012 | Reply
You are a fighter, Deb. Sending hugs your way.

Comment by Naomi Baltuck | September 20, 2012 | Reply

About Me

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Those that know me know that this red sparkly headband is symbolic. When they see the headband on me, they know I am fighting hard physically. It is my symbolic Samson’s hair. It is getting my mojo on and geared up for robo mom to once more fight a battle. And the headband is on now and will be on for a long time. I live with my son who is my caretaker and I am so blessed.

Me with mojo on.

And when things are toughest, I will resort to my dreams to keep me going.

I am 63 and will soon be 64. Life has been a journey of health issues since I was 32 and got sprayed by a crop duster. I have warrior attitude. Being a warrior does not mean you always win. It means you never quit trying. Life is what you make it and I choose to make mine as happy as possible no matter where I am in life.

I spend a lot of time on this hospital bed due to constant pain but I am just thankful I have the hospital bed to lay on. I am disabled but I don’t let that stop me from living life and enjoying it. Life is what we make it and I choose to make mine happy.

Meet Daisy..that we call Miss Daisy. Thanks to Jill, a very special friend who is also has a Rescue for pets called Three Sisters and a Brother in NC, Daisy was transported to us and what a delight she is. About ten pounds and full of energy and love and kisses.

My baby

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Son and Daisy

My world from my hospital bed-it is filled with warmth and love from so many.

I still dream of going back to Italy, of us having one of those mini buses with a lift for my chair that son can convert into a travel home for us to make it easier when I have to go to Denver for surgeries and stuff. I still dream of learning how to tap dance…yes even on these crutches just so I can say I did. All I need are a pair of size 11 tap shoes.

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I draw, I paint, I write, I do photography…my latest love is the clouds for I see faces in the clouds all the time and have a blog at the top of the page entitled “Faces in the Clouds” I sit on a stool and help son cook…yes, often with him leaning over me to help me pour or stir but I get to do it. My philosophy is if you can’t do it one way…then create a new way. Son says I am the only person he knows that used their all terrain power chair like a back hoe…using a grain shovel and rake to move dirt or mulch in the garden. I would hold the handle between my legs and rake up the stuff on the two foot wide shovel and then go backwards dragging the shovel to where I wanted to dump it.

Ever since I was a little girl, I was told I was a dreamer. I can remember report cards with “day dreams” written on it. I think dreams are what keep us going. Without dreams…we have no hope.

Follow Your Dreams, The Siren Called Out To Me

As I closed my eyes and fell deep into lovely sleep.
The dream siren called me with a promise to keep

I closed my eyes and looked deep in my soul
I could feel the wind blowing…it was so very cold

My dreams I had carried through year after year
They will never come true was my biggest fear

Wandering up one lane and down another
Remembering my dream since I became a mother

Land, open land and a place to be free
A small house to live in with a big evergreen tree

We mounted the buckboard with all we owned inside
And started over the mountain on this crazy dream ride

We felt like pioneers racing to the finish line for land
And the whole time we knew -The Lord had our hand

So don’t be afraid to dream your dreams and try
Life is too short…open your wings up and fly

Dream I say and work the dream hard as you can
For it will be the best race that you ever ran.

We all have dreams of what we want out of life. I remember Laverne on Laverne and Laverne saying her dream was to have a purple cashmere sweater. Well, our dream is to own land in the country and have a simple life style unencumbered by so much of what is in the world today.

I love to write and have written for years. And hopefully will continue to write for many more years. My real name is Deb.

This blog is about our journey to get there, our life after we reached the promised land and different middle of the night ramblings. Dreams are like cooking…we might get our grandparents old recipes, but we tend to alter them to suit ourselves. But, dream we must…for as long as we have hope in life…we have dreams. And even plain ole everyday people get dreams that come true.

I hope you enjoy and will subscribe and share my journey. Come join us at the foothills of the mountains where we have found a life of simplicity and serenity, in spite of all the health trials of one disabled woman and the courage of a son that chose to take care of her.