Been A Long Time Since I’ve seen you Lucille

Well Folks, that is how I feel today. It has been close to a year since I have written due to health issues and now I am back….still battling but still going forward. I am going to make this a post that tells of a miracle that happened to me. I had a bad fall, the two  bones of my forearm snapped off my wrist, I was having trouble breathing and zooming high blood pressure and  blood clots flew everywhere and many ended up in my lungs at the top and the artery to my heart. I was taken to the ER and then on to the hospital where I was told I was dying. But, I am still here. I am a person of faith and this just solidified my faith. I have used the phrase “yea though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I fear no evil for thou art with me” all through my life but this event brought that to reality. I have written this story many times to share with others so this is a copy.

I have an amazing miracle story that Jesus performed on me. I went to the hospital ER with massive blood clots in the entrance to my lungs and across the artery that goes into the heart. The doctors said I was going to die. They had never seen such massive clots and definitely never seen anyone live from them.

I asked Jesus to guide me on what to do. One group of doctors said all they could do was give me blood thinners but it would take weeks to do anything and I would be dead by then. And a lone doctor came in and said he did not know why I was alive. He said I should have been dead two weeks before this. He had a procedure he had been working on for five months that he could try but he did not think it would save me but said it was worth a try.

Suddenly as I prayed again to Jesus asking him to guide me,  I felt this overwhelming peace and love pour over me and my son standing beside me did too.  I see Jesus in this man’s eyes and then it was like Jesus was standing in front of me. And he motioned me to follow this lone doctor, so I said ok. I could not stop looking at Jesus. After all the docs left my son says in this emotional voice “Mama you are going to be alright. You are going to live.” I am sure those left in the room thought we were crazy but I assure you we were not because I did live.  I asked my son did he see Jesus like I did and he said no, but he felt Jesus and felt this huge peace that told him I would be ok.

I had people coming to my room constantly in the 12 days I was in the hospital, the first four I think were in ICU. Even people that worked there came and asked me to tell my story. Some cried, some asked me to tell more and a couple you could tell did not believe it even though there was no medical reason for me to still be here. Two asked me how I knew it was Jesus and I told them to just know that if they ever feel or see Jesus, the real Jesus they will know beyond a shadow of a doubt that it is Him.

Believe me when I say that we just think we know how much God/Jesus loves us but it is not near how much He actually does love us. The next day the doctor did his experimental procedure as they ran tubes from my groin up into my lungs and the artery to my heart and dripped clot busters on this massive clot that went from the left side of one lung , across my heart, to the right side of my other lung. It dripped for hours as I lay there. I believe my son said 17 hours. And I started getting better. Three days later I asked my son to bring my power chair and the doctors came in and I was sitting up in my chair and they were just stunned. I smiled and told them good morning.

The next day and for days after I had doctors coming into my room in groups just to see me because they said I did what they did not think was possible. I lived. I told them it was all God and you could see the amazement on some of their faces. They wanted to listen to my lungs and were shocked that they wounded normal. When I came in I was on a 5 of oxygen because I could not breathe. Three days later, I was back down to my normal 2.  As I looked back, I could see God’s hand in this whole event from the ER to being transported by ambulance to the bigger hospital to this lone doctor coming to see me.

The doctor that worked on me said “God has plans for this woman”. And when I prayed and asked God what He wanted me to do, the answer always came back…go tell your story because no one believes in the miracles Jesus did anymore. Many say that there are no more miracles like Jesus healing the blind man, or making the lame man walk, or God parting the sea for the followers to cross to get away from those wanting to kill them. This was a parting the sea moment in my life and I thank God daily for saving me from physical death and want to continue to work for him.

How To Use A Pain Scale Chart

I first was given a pain scale chart about fifteen years ago. I thought if you didn’t put a high number it meant you had no pain. I didn’t know how to read a pain scale chart and believe me when I tell you, that if you don’t follow it like it is intended….doctors will think you are faking. If you tell them on a pain scale chart that is 1-10 that your pain is a 30….the doctors will start disbelieving you have any pain.

I was fortunate some years ago to have a pain management doctor who gave me a chart similar to this one. He explained step by step but the chart also described what is meant by each number. It made it so much easier to tell them my real pain once I learned this chart. He was the doctor that was helping me with my disability claim.

This chart comes from  and is typical of most detailed pain charts you see. Mayo Clinic Chronic Pain lists their pain scale like this:

0-1 No pain
2-3 Mild pain
4-5 Discomforting – moderate pain
6-7 Distressing – severe pain
8-9 Intense – very severe pain
10 Unbearable pain

According to Jack Harich….”One complaint about this scale is “Patients tend to use the middle words and thus distort the assessment.”   So, they made a more comprehensive scale so that patients truly understood what the pain scale meant. This scale helped me give my doctors a better analysis of my pain. It also helped me with my disability claim for I could accurately tell them my pain scale. This is very important if you want help managing your pain.My pain management doctor told me the pain scales were created to get an accurate view of a patient’s pain so that it could be treated and helped.

Here is the detailed pain scale:

The Comparative Pain Scale

By Jack Harich – July 14, 2002

I had to laugh the first time I read a comprehensive pain scale for I realized that my idea that a pain level of 5 was nothing or just ‘normal” pain was so far from the truth it was laughable. A pain level of 5 is :

Strong, deep, piercing pain, such as a sprained ankle when you stand on it wrong, or mild back pain. Not only do you notice the pain all the time, you are now so preoccupied with managing it that you normal lifestyle is curtailed. Temporary personality disorders are frequent.

That doesn’t sound like nothing, does it. You are so preoccupied with curtailing this pain of level 5 that your normal lifestyle is curtailed. I realized then that a pain level of five was significant.

I remember thinking that if I did not put a high number…no one would listen to me and the truth of the matter was….they were not listening because I was not showing the signs of someone suffering with pain levels of 7 and 8 at that time.  It was not until I had kidney surgery about three years ago that I realized just how close this scale runs to the truth. I had a pain level of an honest 8 after kidney surgery …..and that was with pain meds. I was in so much pain I could not eat, I could not sleep, I could barely walk..with help to the bathroom, I could not fix my food, nothing….and because of this I lost around 36 pounds in 30 days. That is how drastically that pain level affected me.

Now, my reason for posting this. If you want doctors to believe you…..truly follow the pain scale. Don’t base it on how much pain you can endure…base it on what it does to you physically…how it limits you….for that is what the doctors look at.  It may seem like your pain is just going through the roof…but if it does not limit you, or does not affect you in the ways the chart says, then look at the different levels and see what does.

I have learned to judge my pain level well…after years of chronic pain that has debilitated me. But, the first few years, I went through hell because I did not know how to talk to the doctors and make them understand. I did not know how to use a pain scale accurately and have it show that I indeed was being affected by my pain. And I did not realize that a pain level of five and six are high pains and not anything to take lightly. Therefore, they were not treating my pain like they should.

It is all in knowing the way the scale works and realizing that what we view as distressing pain is a five or six…and that these numbers do show high pain. So, try looking at the chart and rating your pain sometime by the description. We don’t get points for being able to tolerate the pain unfortunately….it is all based on what it does to us. What debilitated me may not be what debilitated you and doctors look at that. And they are keenly observant and notice things that give signs of distress.

Don’t let your pain rule you. Learn how to talk about your pain and what to tell your doctor it is doing…not just a number…but the words…so that they hear you and believe you.

My Son’s book on alternative things to do for pain. I am so proud of him. He is my caretaker. He and Dr. Sherry E. Showalter joined forces to try to help those with pain. He writes under the name “John Argent” and is now working on a crime novel. The pain book is on Amazon.

pain book